Just bits and pieces is what this is

The past 5 days have been awesome. :)

Thursday, all the exchange students went swimming in a place next to my village, Åby. :) In a gorgeous lake we just chilled and had fun.
We went back to my house afterwards and had a BBQ. :)

Friday, Brandon went back to Lund and i just chilled at home most of the day. That night i had my next host family over for dinner :) Oh, they are fantastic :) haha

No thank you, I have had an elegant sufficiency and anymore would have been a superfluous indulgence




Saturday,  THE ROYAL WEDDING! :) Saturday i went to Linköping to visit my great friend David. :) we watched the wedding on the big screen and i have decided now, i want to be a princess :) We also saw the winner of Euro vision 2009, Alexander someone... haha the one that sings the im in love with a fairytale song :)


Saturday night i slept over at Lydias, my host sister. So the next day we could wake up bright and early to go to Pier pressure Festival in Göteburg.

It was AMAZING!

Paramore
Thirty Seconds to Mars
The Sounds
Pendulum
HIM
+ More. :) Ohhh wow.
Great 24 hours.

Monday was nice :) I got home from the festiival at 7 in the morning and went directly to bed and slept till 12 :) That afternoon I GOT A HAIRCUT! WoooOoOO!
haha Yep. By one of the exchange students who is our personal hairdresser :) (Well, for now anyway)

That night we had a meeting of all the inbound and outbound exchange students in my town. We ate yummmmm food and afterwards played some viking game involving throwing wood at more wood.... Yep... Vikings where awesome! ha

Now, its Wednesday... Well, technically Thursday coz its 1:36am... :) But, its so scary to think this time next week i will be on Europe tour... :0 Im scared, and excited, and happy and AHHHH ! Its just gonna be awesome!

I move to my second host family on Monday or Tuesday. :D Ohhhhh I Is excitedededed for that too. :)

Well, i have to sleeep now!

Last night we watched star wars with the exchange students and i fell asleep due to the night before that i stayed up with my host brother + friend watching Saw... EEEEP! Scary as shit movie, btw... :)

ANYWAY!

Until next time,
Xoxo
Crystal

Friendship is forever.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -- Dr. Seuss

This week i have had to say goodbye to one of my friends from Mexico... Watching her say goodbye and trying to hold back from being sad and just making the most of the time together has made me realise how very difficult it is to say goodbye to people you care about.  But, saying that i guess you should be happy that you had the privilege to meet them in the first place. If it is friendship, it will follow you around the world.

Wherever you go. You only must trust it and if it is true friendship it will last a lifetime. And thats one of the beauties in friendship.

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go..." 

— Dr. Seuss (Oh, the Places You'll Go!)

I have always been the kind of person who loves to make friends. But i have always been the kind of person who hates to loose them. The people around me are always the ones who make me smile or laugh or sometimes cry, but, i love them for it.

True friends are hard to find, but i know you are one.


Until nextime,
Xoxo
Crystal Holt

Please

Please don't forget me....

This Aint A Love Song, this is goodbye.

Don't dwell on the past or loose sleep thinking about it. It was all your choice, you knew the future would come sometime...

"There is no such thing as loved. Love has no past tense. If ever stopped loving someone,  then you never truly loved them in the first place."

So here it is:

Okay, so. Truth be told here. I miss you. When i come home, things are going to be different. Of coarse. But, the thing is. Things will never go back to how they used to be. You know it. I know it. So why are we trying. It was always about you. Never about us. We are young, so why not just act like it?... Love is true. But this was not it. This was 2 lonely hearts trying to find comfort. One day it will be love. But for now, we're young. Make the most of it.









Every night I remember that event
The way you looked when you said you were leaving
The way you cried as you turned to walk away
The cruel words and the false accusations
The mean looks and the same old frustrations
I never thought that we'd throw it all away
But we threw it all away.

And I'm a little bit lost without you
And I'm a bloody big mess inside
And I'm a little bit lost without you
This aint a love song this is goodbye (oooooh)
This aint a love song this is goodbye (ooooh)

I've been lost, I've been losing
I've been tired, I'm all hurt and confusion
I've been mad, I'm the kind of man that I'm not
I'm going down, I'll be coming back fighting
I may be scared and a little bit frightened
But I'll be back, I'll be coming back to life
I'll be coming back to life

And I'm a little bit lost without you
And I'm a bloody big mess inside
And I'm a little bit lost without you
This aint a love song this is goodbye (oooooh)
This aint a love song this is goodbye (ooooh)

Whoooo
And you can try (you can try)
And you can try but you'll never keep me down
And you can try (you can try)
And you can try but you'll never keep me down

La la la la la la la
(I wont be lost, i wont be down)

And I'm a little bit lost without you
And I'm a bloody big mess inside
This ain't a love song this is goodbye

It's alright (It's alright) cause you can try but you'll never keep me down
It's alright (It's alright) I may be lost but you'll never keep me down
You can try (you can try) you can try but you'll never keep me down
You cant try (you can try) I know i'm lost but I'm waiting to be found
you'll never keep me down
you'll never keep me down
never keep me down

Craziness. This is all craziness.

This week has been crazy.

It is the last week of the school year.

Graduation, Parties and lots of white dresses and hats.

On Thursday it was the last day of school. :) Which consisted of going to the church in the morning, listening to a bunch of speeches, nearly pooing my pants when they told the whole school about the new Australian exchange student who will make a speech at the Christmas mass in Swedish (YIKES) and watching all of the beautiful haga students all dressed up in gorgeous dresses and suits. :)

That afternoon i spent with Lorena, my Mexican friend. We watched the graduation where all the parents stand outside with massive signs with their kids baby face on it. The students ran out and sang the graduation song then waved their hats in the air.

                                                                                                          Me with my hat!

Then. The fun part. 

They got in trucks, convertibles,boats, motorbikes , you name it. And went around town drunk singing and dancing :) Oh so funny.

That night i went and barbecued with some friends :)

Friday, i couldnt believe my eyes.

Woke up, looked at my clock. 1:55pm.

OHHH SHITTTT!

haha

I was going to the sports bar at 3:30 to watch Mexico and South Africa in the Fifa world cup with all the exchange students.

everyone dressed up in Mexian colours because we wanted Mexio to win. :)

Then, after i went to my other friends house for another Barbeque. We talked alot and chilled and listened to music :)

Yep.

Pretty epic.

Untill nextime,

xoxo

Crystal Holt

I want to be in love.

love is...

going to the lake with your boyfriend to watch the sun set
and not even realizing you missed it
:]

You're favorite song, or your passion.

Your favorite book or film.






That person who is always there for you, no matter what.




Family.






The first snow fall.

"Love is our weapon"

I want to be in love again.

Sometimes you just gotta have a little faith...

So,
Today I had the worst thinking I’ve had in a while.
It rained most of the day today. Felt like the sky was crying. It wasn’t the happy type of rain either... It was the pathetic, miserable, sad type. My walk home was just as miserable thinking, just been shopping realising how I look at the moment and not comfortable with the reflection of the mirror, missing the bus and waiting for 25 minutes for the next, and realising how much money I spend and how I don’t need to but it just makes me feel better, knowing Swedish is such a difficult language and I try so hard to learn it, but it never shows...

Sometimes I wish life was simple, easy. But, then I think where would the adventure be in that..?

I also think, whilst I am walking home in the gloomy, rainy weather that I am lucky.
Some people aren’t so lucky. The same time, or exact moment, I was having these thoughts someone may have lost love, lost faith, or even have nothing to begin with...

Life is to be cherished. Love is to help you feel like you’re not alone. And faith is always there for you, as long as you believe in something. Anything.
“Hold on to what you believe” – Mumford & sons.
Friends and family are something that will always keep you believing when you need it the most.

Cherish those moments of love, the real type. The type that may fight and argue, but is true.

It takes a lot of guts to trust someone with your heart. But, that is just a part of the fun and adventure. Not everything is meant to be, but I’m a strong believer that when it is meant to be its up to you to hold onto that person or whatever it may be.

You are in control of your destiny. No one else.

It’s a lot to carry on your shoulders,

but one day everything will fall into place.

Have faith in yourself, and those around you.

Untill nextime,
Xoxo
Crystal Holt

Vi är bäst. :)

This weekend has been Epic. :)

It started off with a great night at my friends, Malins, house!

<3

We made chocolate balls ( my loveeeee!) and watched what happens in vagas. Had a loverly dinner outside in the warmth and sun! :)



Saturday, Malin and i went Op Shopping!!!! I got some great bargins and lots of jokes with

Malin :) That girl is amazing :)

After that, i decided i wanted ice cream. SO! Called my friend Maja and was all like 'yo, waz up. wanna get some ice creamm kiddo?' and of coarse, she couldnt say no!!! So it was off to get ice cream we went! We where not to happy though, as our friend Annika was 'studying' so didnt want to come get ice cream... But we had our own idea for that girl! :D
Our plan! So, we went on an adventure invaiding Annika's house :)
We bought her ice creammmmmm!!

YUmmmmmMMmm! :)

So, after that crazy/epic adventure i wented home and found 3 boys in my house... ? Hmm, okay then. Gustav had friends over and i was like wtf,stfu. Im inviting my awesome sisterrr overr! :D SO!
12 at night, i rode to the bus stop (20 minutes walk, 8 minutes bike away) in the

LIGHT! Yes! Light! at 12 at night!! WTF!

And met my great sister Lydia! We went home and ate and watched a movie :) OH! and Hamish and Andy :)

Sunday!!!!!

Ohhhhh What a fantastic day.
Got to sleep in lotss! :D Twaz nice. Lydia and i woke up, ate and then went to meet my friends (Malin, Cornelia, Amalia and Niklas.) to go SWIMMINGGGGGG!!!! WOOO
In 23 degree sunny weather! :D

YAY! JOY! GREAT! :)

My first time swimming in Sweden!!!!

So. We went, we swam, we freezed :) It was fun!

We waited for the bus for a hour.. :) i think i might have got a tan! :D haha
Ohh! And! And! So funny! It was like Corn and Malin jumped in first and then yelled at Niklas to get in, soooo... He did... Ummm, got back out, and looked down went 'fannnn' (fuck/damn) his mobile was in his pocket :) hahahahahaha

Ohhhh so funnnnyyy :D

RIP Niklas' Mobil. :)

Anyways. I had a first many first of things today.

I had my FIRST swedish MAX hamburger!!! :D

Oh my god! Sooooooo goooooood!!! :D <3


Now. I am home. Its nearly 10pm and is still sunny and like its the middle of the day outside. :)

I finish school on Thursday!!! We are going to go crazy and swim in the fountain XD ! :D haha

Anyways! Things to do, people to seeee. :)

Untill nextime,
Xoxo
Crystal Holt

Optimism.

@backseatgoodbye is amazing...
This just made me smile, optimism.

:::


iamyouareme asked: i wish my life was like one of your amazing songs.

It already is, you just have to look a little closer.

Do me a favor…
Stand up, walk to wherever the nearest window is, and just look outside. You may not know this, but there’s an entire planets-worth of summers, friends, sunsets, street lamps, songs, late nights, great films, and night skies waiting for you. Your life is as amazing as you want it to be, but first, you have to let it be that way.

And trust me, I’m not saying this for some kind of gimmick happiness, or to sound cliche… I’m saying it because I mean it :)

Let's dress up like dreams and pretend we're free.

Well,

Today was.. Umm, eventful.

Started off with not very nice conversation from home. :/
But! Despite that, i had a great day.
My class had a BBQ and played brannbol.

My class are so great. They love me and i love them.

Ok.


-Christofer Drew


WARNING: Rant time.

Why do people hold on to things that will never happen?
Also, i know i may be hypocritical here but why do people say things like i would do that over if i could when they new it was going to be in the past eventually anyway. You gotta keep moving.

I just want to live my life one step at a time. I am the kind of person who dislikes planning and knowing what i have ahead... (Which sometimes can be a bad thing, sure.) But, thats me. And i like that.

I find that most people i meet, i get along with easily. But, some people i have know for a while can get to me. I meet new people nearly everyday. Hardly remember some of their names. I love it. Swedes are so nice. And, the best thing they are like me.
Easy going, not planning or making things complicated.
It is just exactly how it is.

You win some, you loose some.

There is nothing you can do to change that.

People fight so much. And, so many fights or arguements and bitching about such idiotic and small things. Sometimes i wonder if the people around me have grown up fast or i just haven't grown up yet...


Anyway. Thats enough now...

Its up to you to find the beauty in the ugly days.
Its up to you to find the beauty in yourself, no matter what it may be.

Until nextime,

Xoxo
Crystal