This is me. And i will not change for anyone.

The truth. Nothing else.

[x(not exactly sure.)]I am shorter than 5′5″.
[x (both kinds...) ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan or burn easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[] I have more than two piercings.
[] I have or had piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Some ((MANY)) Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I’ve had my pants rip in public.
[] I’ve gotten stitches.
[] Broken a bone.
[] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I’ve had surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[] I’ve driven or ridden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[] I’ve been to Canada.
[] I’ve been to Asia.
[] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[x] I’ve been to Europe.
[] I’ve been to Florida.
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I’ve been to a casino.
[] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I’ve crashed some type of vehicle.
[] I’ve been skiing.
[] I’ve been in a musical.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[] I’ve been snowboarding.
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out.
[x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[] I’ve ran a red light.
[] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[] I’ve been arrested.
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone / something dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
[] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.
[] I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collected comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie
[x] I can sing okay
[] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I like to rant a lot.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I am a sports fanatic
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[] I have “x”’s in my screen name.
[x] I love spam.
[] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[x] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[] I’m good at remembering names.
[] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest

OoOOoo. Hamburg, you're lookin' hot tonight :)

Friday.

Gymnasietlaget

! Aka, big dodge ball competition between schools in Norrköping. (Big deal)
WooooO!

Go HAGA!!!

But, i could not go. :/ :) As, i was on my way to Hamburg! :D

Yippeeeee! :)







So, Friday we where not that lucky.
It was raining most of the day, but thats fine. It was still beautiful.
We met with Louise, did some shopping then had a great dinner. :)

Saturday
Saturday consisted of much walking. First, we went on a boat around some of the harbor. Beautiful.
Next, we had some lunch.

PANCAKES! :)

A num num num :)
We then continued looking [ Consisting of looking IN the four seasons hotel, and me filming then getting told off because it so exclusive they dont like it. whilst feraries and porches are driving past!!! :0 ] and for dinner that night went to friends of my host parents. :)

Sunday
We went to a nice cozy place called, reeperbahn. Now. I could describe it like this...

I have never seen that many sex shops/clubs/ect.. in my life! :/

Was definately interesting. We went there in the day time so it wasnt bad, although there where still some drunks walking around and some clubs where still open at 11am.. :/

So, then we made some happy snaps (photos) ate, and off we went to the jet plane. :)

Back to the land of Sweden.

Well, thats it for now.
Just a little,

Crystal Land Update.

I miss my friends immensely. No words to say how much they mean to me.

Until next time,

XoXo,
Crystal

Where did you go...?

- Norrköping by night.





Dearest Snow which used to grace my loverly front yard and windowsill, i miss you.
I miss how you kissed the fields and pavement,
and how beautiful you look with the sun shinning on you.

But, i must mention. I am not ungrateful one bit for this wonderful spring we have here upon us. It is beautiful in its own way.
The rain, then magnificent sun the next. Green fields and blue skies.

It is okay. I'm sure you will come back dearest snow. But, i am just writing to you to let you know,

You are beautiful.

With love,
Crystal Holt

Hello. Hello... Helloooo. . .

Well, life is one great thing eh.?

Must say, i am so grateful for everything right now. I look outside and everything is green and just looks happy.
All of you people in my life, make me smile at the silliest things. :) And i love it.

I love how someone can just brighten you're day even if they are pretending to be nasty. :)

ANYWAY! Lately, i have been quite busy.
-Learning swedish
-Eating ice cream
-Having fika with school friends
-Going to Vimmerby to make new Swedish exchange student friends
-Having Swedish Barbeques
-Watching Scary movies with my next host sister and talking SOOO much!


And Much Much More!


I just have to say, i have been here 4 months now, and i think i have changed so much.
I have grown so much more happier with myself, and confident with who i am.

I'm proud of myself. I truly am.

All the people i have met so far along this road have made me who i am and i wouldnt change that for anything.

Life is a gift

, and i don't intend on wasting it any longer. I just want to spend it with the people i love and exploring this beautiful world with one thing i will never part with,

Music.

This Friday - Sunday i am going to Germany to visit my host sister Louise. :) Im so excited! I love Marita and Arne so much for taking me. They are honestly some of the most kind people i have met.
Some others who are totally and utterly amazing are my next host family, Liza Rikard and Lydia.

I love them so much.

On Saturday i did 'the dumb dumb stick' with them. Ohhhhh so funny! Rikard couldnt get it! :D

sooo funny

;)

Lydia and i are honestly like best friends, if not sisters. I love talking to her.
I Feel so comfortable with her, and them. SHE TOUGHT ME HOW TO KNIT! :D WOO! Haha

I don't know whats around the corner, but i am going there with a smile and whatever is in my pockets.

Love, kindness and spreading the love.

I love you all. Live you're life and don't waste a minute.

Untill nextime,

Xoxo

Love Crystal

Needs sleep.

Just wants to dream...

"I do believe in Fairies. I do! I do!"

So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!







Second to the right, and then straight on till morning.

Thinking is how i keep sane.

"So, this is what it’s come to
Another ten years of guessing
When and where the good years will find me
I drew all over my arms
Words to my favorite songs
When I hate the world, they remind me not to
Sometimes I wonder
Why the hell I think so much
Most the time I’m all that’s in my way"

We're one of the same.

Today there was a thunderstorm.
Rain fell on my head as if

the sky was kissing me.

Thunderstorms.
Always make me happy.
Walked home in the rain. Smiling.





I'm read a book at the moment called 'one day'
It is, of coarse, a girly romance novel.
But, it makes me think... Love is so complicated. Why is it like that?
Why can't it just be as simple as it sounds.

I. Love. You.

I guess i will find out one day. But, for now im happy. Im happy by myself.
I finally feel comfortable with myself and happy . :)

Xoxo

Crystal Holt

Yep. SUMMER IS NEARLY HERE! And this is exactly how i feel :) hehe

Just another deep and meaningful mood, so. I Type. :) :)

‘Amongst Angels and grinning masks’

Okay,

So.
The last 5 days I have spent in our villa in a place in the middle of no where, close to the town where my host mum grew up, a place called Växjö.
Right now im in the car on the way back to

Lodby.

All I am thinking about at the moment, sitting in this car being bored out of my brain, is home. Right now all I want is to be home curled up in my bed cuddling my high school musical blanket. But saying that, I don’t want to leave Sweden. No way. I just miss it. I don’t think there is a problem with saying that. I know it runs through every exchange students mind, they miss home, but don’t want to go back... Not yet. Im having the best time here, i think if i went home i would miss this. . :) <3 Sweden.

Its my sisters birthday soon. 21. Wow. She is so old. Haha
She went on exchange. Just like me. When she was 16. To Canada. I think that she is such a big influence on me, in a good way of coarse. :) She must be one of the courageous people is know. I swear.

Also, it was mothers day this time last week. And I truly think that whole day I was just thinking how lucky I am to have my mum. She is the most beautiful and loving woman.

I love my family.

I love my mum and her worrying and her protectiveness
and I love my dad and his stupid dad jokes and bad smell when he just comes in from milking the cows :) (Well, maybe not the smell... :s Yuk. :s )

I love my brother and his great taste of music and the way he is so independent.

And I love my sister, and the way she is such a strong person and I can always rely on her for help or guidance.

And after being in a place like where I have for the last 5 days, waking up to the sound of cows next door or farmers outside walking past with their dogs,

I love my animals, and my farm.

I would never change the way I have been bought up, on a farm with my family and my animals. Even with all dads silly 'dad jokes' and pop saying ‘oh, its just 10 o’clock sickness’ when im SERIOUSLY sick. Or when dad used to ‘messure’ the whole for the fence post with me! Or going and chopping thistles with pop (oh how boring.)

I have only been away 4 months or so, and already I have so much appreciation for not only the rest of the world and population, but my home. I realise how lucky I am and how kind some people are in this world.

Some people just do so much to build

happiness

or just doing something completely selfless, yet there are those few who can not think of anything apart from themselves sometimes and how the world revolves around them. But, those people will see the light one day. They will see that there is no reason to be like that.

The world is a beautiful place,

it deserves to be discovered and seen. I hope to do that.

I want to discover things I have never even thought existed. I want to know the history of these beautiful buildings and places.

Some things I see here just make me look and carry my mind to different places. I think about things from when I was 5 or things that I cant even explain.
To anyone who hasent travelled and is to afraid or to shy or just doesn’t want to, I completely understand. But, there is just so much to explore in this life. And I want to explore it.

Feelings, Places, sights, experiences, smells, tastes. . .

Whatever it may be,

it all makes the person I am now.

But this person is not yet complete

.
So much to see. Im so young. And I think I will probably still be saying all this when I am 80 or 90. That I have so much to see. :)

This place is beautiful.

This life is beautiful.

My family and my friends are Beautiful.

I love life.

Until next time,

Xoxo

Love Crystal

"when you ain't here baby i just can't breath."

I love my family

. (All three of coarse.) :) Just thought i would say that. :) Because its so true.

Also,

Happy Mothers day! <3

I am so lucky. My mum is simply amazing and i love her to the moon and back a million gazzilion times.

At the moment im in a place kind of in the middle of no where, just next to Väjxö. Its so nice here. Peaceful.

Farmers walking around moving cows and fresh air reminds me of back home, which isn't a bad thing. :) It actually makes me happy because somehow, i might regret saying this, but i think i will appreciate my home when i get back to Australia.

Today i was very happy about myself :) I bought a new pair of runners/joggers/gym shoes/ whatever the hell you want to call them :). They where very needed. And also a new pair of sunglasses :) Maybe they wernt needed but they where so cute and when i put them on i could just see myself walking around in Paris or somewhere nice and sunny . :)

Its been getting sunny here nice and early now... (WHICH SUCKS! . . .) and getting dark a bit later. :) But thats nice. It will keep getting later and later and earlier and earlier till a little thing they call here 'Mid Summer.' aka, party time because its so sunny. :) haha

Wow, i cant help but be distracted by this show on tv... some Swedish people singing a bunch of random songs. ? haha

Wells, i best be off watch the rest of this crazy/funny/makes me smile kinda show :)

Keep smiling. :) Its good for you. :)

Till next time,
Xoxo
Love Crystal

I'm grateful for this.

So, i could possible be the luckiest person in Sweden right now.

I have just got back from a district camp with the exchange students. We went to a coastal town called

Kalmar.

Exchange students are the most fun people.
So, at this camp we didn't do much. Went bowling, played pool, went to schools and found some people, one dressed up as a cow and one as a pirate? haha No joke! :)

The weekend before that, i went with my host mum and dad and Lore from

Mexico

to our summer house to clean up and get it ready for summer!!! :) It was so much fun. Lorena and i took so many photos and worked very hard! (Wink wink, nudge nudge. ;) ) :)

OH! Last week,

i nearly pooed my pants

!!! hahaha (Not literally... )! :

I was at a rotary meeting which i go to everyweek and this one day they told me we where going to eat strömming...... Which is herring... Which is fish... That is bad... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think i nearly cried. D: i tried it, and couldn't bring myself to thinking it was just fish... i didn't eat it all. But im proud to say that i ate a whole 4 mouth fulls :)
*Proud face* :) But apparently there is worse... D: 0:

BTW!!!... :

The Spring is here

!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Its so beautiful.

Yesterday i went out for a run, got back, and lay on the trampoline looking at the sky and the clouds. :)

It was peacful.

And last night i got my doona curled up on the couch and watched Peter Pan.
Made me think how much i wish i was a kid again... :/

I do believe in Fairies! I do! I do!

So, my schedule is pretty packed for the rest of the month..
this Wednesday my host family and i leave to go to a place called Växjö. In the middle of nowhere.. :) to our villa. :)
Then the next weekend i am going to the home of Astrid Lingren (Pippy Long stocking) , Vimmerby. To a camp for the Swedish exchange students who will be going away on exchange :)
Then! The next weekend i amm going to

GERMANY!!!

! WOOO! :) Where we will look around at the harbor in Hamburg and go shopping and look around the beautiful town with my host family and host sister, Louise. :) Im so overrrrly excited!!!! :)

Yep.
I must say, i really do love my friends here :) My class is just the best ever! :)
They are so much fun. :) I love talking to them and hanging out, eating ice cream and gossiping. :) Having heart to hearts with Ana by the water next to the university :)

Life is good.

The sun is shining, i have many important people in my life whom i love and

my exchange is the best thing ever! :)

Well, i better get to school eh. Its kinda nice how some of my classes are cancelled because of exams :D ;)

Xoxo
Love always,

Crystal Holt